Snippets of Life

      Green. All I see is green.      It is not a pleasant green, of meadows and life. It is pale, sickly, fading.      Time moves slowly here. Although there are no clocks on the walls, I feel like I can hear them ticking, second by second, as my life inches away into nothingness.      I am empty.      Then, startled. There is a loud noise. I look anxiously next to me. "Medicine time," he says.      We go out in the hallway with everyone else.      I am given a cup, with three formidable looking pills.      "What are they?" I ask, and no one answers.      He looks upset. "Dont take that," he barks, going to talk to the doctors.      So I don't, and time continues to inch by. He comes back in a huff, and someone is speaking.      "They want to take your blood," he says. I shrug and get up, following them to a cold, metal sea...

                                                                       **Trigger warning: miscarriage     When we found out we were going to have a child, I was so terrified that I cried.      You held me in your arms and reassured me that it would be alright, but I couldn't believe you.      I had just finished therapy for my depression less than a year ago. I had tried to take my own life. We were moving back to China. How could I posssibly handle one more responsability?     It didn't feel real. And when it did, for a moment, all I could feel was fear.      We had no idea what we were doing.      And then...I found the blood.      With it, I instantly knew.      I had n...